transitions.

Monday, November 21, 2005

i guess everyone need to get their confidence by trashing others self esteem. that is how the world works after all.

im really glad that i dint screw up for my busac. thank myself, thank galvin and thank god since i asked him for help in a very improper manner... ( hehe oh well ) but its ok. i just said thanks to my rosary hanging on my wall. haha. i spent the night watching anime yesterday. tyo lend my his harddisk so now i can store even more japanese dramas and animes. im like downloading like 6 files, totaling up near 15gb.

i have an essay due tomorrow, and i havent even started doing. seeing the way i blog,i can see so many wrong sentence structure. sometimes i think im so smart, but the fact that im dumb makes me feel so inferior. ok just what am i trying to say. was thinking that if schooling is boring, then working must be also darn boring. im always worrying for things that will happen in the future yet i keep forgetting there are things to do and finish right now. since richard is moving out i would need to find a roommmate. my my, this is really really confusing. now that i think of it, its really hard for me to find a roommate in such a short time. the worst thing is that i only have 2 weeks to find one or else ill lose $400. grrr sucha big amount of money. think its such a waste. i really hope that would be someone to share my burden. on top of that, i need to write my personal statement for applications to UC's. so many things to do. i guess its tough growing up to be an adult. money reduces pain, doesn't it. am i wrong again ______?

Thursday, November 17, 2005

i dont really know what to write now, since my mind is all messed up.

i feel rather strong today, as in any bad news that come to me, i could take the blow. i guess the only thing that i cant take is my own personal failure. its pretty amazing at times to see how i take charge of my life and further ruining it.

nothing much to blog i guess.

nobody knows who i really am huh... hahaha.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

well well. maybe japanese arent that pretty, but they do have a good reputation for being pretty. or is it because i watched too much television show thats why i assumed that japanese girls are pretty. hahaha. well. 4 days of hols coming, im so happy. richard is moving out in a month's time. hahaha, thats pretty soon i guess. well well, i dont know when is the next time im gonna get to see him after he transfer. perhaps in a year or so, or perhaps never. this kept me thinking, people come and go. feels weird.

was watching gokusen with him on my computer yesterday. " gokusen " - yakuza teacher. the show was hilarious! watched for 6 hours straight with richard. well.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

not say in the very best of mood. cause someone just irritated me.

sometimes why people act so differently infront of some people. it just pisses me off so much at times. worst of all, dont practice what they preached. so much for being god's follower. i rather not have religion and spoil god's image.

i just watched summer snow. man the show was so awesome. the ending was kinda unexpected. i managed to figure out the ending though. thumbs up for summer snow! japanese drama arent that bad.

i went for chinese class today and as usual it was kinda crappy. the teacher flashed some stupid music videos about chinese songs. the quality of the mtv was those like in the 1970's, its so NTSC quality. went home afterwards, wanted to talk with joey and xiangmin. in the end, i walked home with yumi. i think the best thing that happened today was to watch summer snow and talk to yumi. yumi is really cool and on top of that she is so polite. nevermind i shall not elaborate here. i just have good impression of japanese. chatted with her like for half an hour or more. the first time interacting with japanese was really fun.

happy birthday raymond. i know you might not be reading this, but i just hope that the friendship among us could get better. though i am t say like very close to you, i just wanna say thank you for helping me out last time. have fun.

Friday, November 04, 2005

man i dont know where to start. i dont even know what to talk about. think ill just keep everything myself and forget the whole incident. i think i ought to change my life style. well.